Walking in Step with the Lord?

There’s one thing about being self-employed, you sure have a lot of time on your hands if you’re not a “rain maker” with lots of connections and the ability to network like crazy. But that leaves me with a lot of time to follow after God… or not follow after God. But whatever the case, I can no longer use “I am too busy with my work to do that for you Lord” which may have been the whole point of this period in my life.

Since getting laid off I went on my first short-term mission, started a ministry, actually followed through with ministry activities and planning for bigger things, joined the prayer team, started hearing from God more, reading the Bible more consistently (read more than never), and studying the Bible too boot. Not that I do any of those things spectacularly, or that it is not a struggle to do it. But God has been rewarding me with speaking to me more through those whom I interact with.

Also, I have been day dreaming, and dreaming, more about teaching people, leading the ministry I seem to have gotten myself into, and I have come to be more concerned about what we do in that ministry. It scares me, disturbs me, and excites me. But mostly, I am trying not to be so resistant to leading and setting up all these things — especially since planning and coordinating is the thing I hate. Also, since I have never really done that stuff, I am finding that there are a lot of areas I am falling short, but at the same time learning a lot.

Gah, it’s a mess.